You can play with my emotions, Guess what? It only makes me a stronger more confident, more knowing woman. I know now that I do not need to be someone else to make a man happy. If he was happy and loved me I would not have to change at all. He would want me the way I am. No man stays with a woman just for one thing, such as sex, looks, there are other factors that get brought into the picture. I think attraction between people can begin at any moment. There does not have to be a set mood, the attraction is just there. Now lust and genuine sexual attraction are different in my opinion. The lust comes with physical sexual attraction, strictly look and feel not the inner feelings that exist with a genuine feeling of love.
     I know that I hold the key to my own happiness which lies deep within me somewhere between resentment, anger, and abandonment from childhood. As we get older we  think our mind will be clearer because we are older and old people can figure stuff out. I figured it out: No they can't! That is why none of us can. Because all people have ever done is the best they can do and in my opinion if a kid comes out of childhood without a single scratch than the parents did something wrong. Kids need real world experiences, not a forcibly manipulated reality where all the problems are laid neatly out in front of them. See get onto one topic it folds into another.

to be continued....