pinpoint

I can sift through the day

and pin point the exact moment when I realized

that I put my heart into places where it becomes weak

I can tell you how much I noticed 

That I do it to myself

I can figure out exactly which moment was the moment

But I can't change outcomes

I can tell you how I do it and why

But I can't stop

I can think of that time when I realized 

That I become too knowledgeable of these exact moments and 

I really wish I could stop myself from hurting my own heart.